we know in part…
we were back at my parents’ farm this past weekend. and on a stroll around the acreage i went inside one of the barns to snap some shots of details that have not really changed since i lived there as a walking man. a lot of years ago.
from the center of the barn i looked toward this door, where the afternoon sun was washing the west wall of the barn, but barely finding its way through the cracks. not a lot of light, but just enough to draw my sight in its direction.
the way the weekend played out, this photo now speaks to me as a reminder of the nature of life here on earth. i need to be reminded often that i am an eternal person. that we are eternal people. it is all too easy to slip into the trance of thinking that this life is the heaven part of the equation, when in reality, this is simply earth. the part of the journey much like the dark or dimly lit center of this barn. there is enough light most days to keep us moving in the right direction, but not always enough light to dispel the confusion. the disorientation that occurs when life takes different turns than we expect or welcome.
while we were all gathered around the breakfast bar waiting to share brunch and some family time on sunday morning, our son Jon went rigid and fell to the floor and had a seizure. it seemingly came out of nowhere. we spent the next several hours at the emergency room; tests there were negative as to cause. so although he seems back to normal at this point, there are a great deal of questions for us about it all. like the dark center of the barn, looking toward the rays of light coming through the door. there is faith, but there is also confusion. disorientation. fear.
we have appointments in the neurology department at mayo clinic on friday, and are hoping, praying for some kind of explanation, some kind of reason, and then of course, that something can be done… we would appreciate your prayers as well.
“Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.” [from 1 corinthians 13]